moments

2011-07-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

okay i know its my fault for coming home late..haiz, but why must you control my life?? why must you make things worse? argh!!! aku macam nak maki!! aku tkle tahan kat rumah!!! asyik kene control je!!! ape ni, stop it sia please la, always think you're right and im always wrng..never even bother to listen my views, even once..kau tak pernah kesah sal ape aku buat, kau tak pernah kesah ape jadi ngn hidup aku,kau tak pernah ambil tau sal pelajaran aku,kau selalu fikir aku salah, aku bodoh. okay fine! im stupid k, happy?! kalau aku menyusahkan kan kau, lebih baik biarkan aku keluar rumah kn kalau aku nak balik rumah ke tak kau tk payah kesah!
skg kau expect aku balik sekolah by 6 plus, kau pikir boleh pe? kalau tak ramai org la. aku kat sekolah belajar pe, aku tak sebodoh yang kau sangka kn ok! dengan anak sendiri ckp bodoh, you think you're so smart??!
Astaghfirullah hal azim....

2011-07-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

yes i know my previous past post are like emo shit? or maybe making you feel creepy about it..(bulu roma ternaik) its just that i dont know how to let things out and put it in a better form..im not used to it..
maybe because of all that they think im desperate..haiz..im just trying to let things out..
people keep on saying, cheer up, relax. They said they understand how you feel, but i dont think so..its not that easy..especially when you're trying to make things look normal..hiding your real emotions..
\haiz, i'll just continue find ways to cheer me up, and just keep on smiling..being emo is so not me...hmm..

2011-07-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

oh well, i know i've been acting as if im desperate and obsessed for ya..well hell no! i may have fallen for you but not till that extend. does not mean im not okay its about you. well things have not been good lately, and i'm really trying my best to absorb what happen, slowly adjusting and digest it..haiz..
i shall not care what they said about being desperate etc etc, they dont know how i feel deep down insde and what happen lately...

you are not giving me any chances to at least talk about it. do you even know what i'm feeling? i feel like fool at times waiting for you to reply my msges..cant you at least reply me and not making me wait and start making nonsensical assumption..is it so hard for you to type few words and click on send? haiz...
you feel hanging? then what about me? you think im not? can't you see what you're doing is hurting me, huh?
if only you know....

you made me think more about it~

2011-07-18T14:10:00.001+08:00

BLEAGHHHH~~~~~

WHat a day today~~~~~

Fatin told me something which really shocked me...

i thought she was just joking, but no, she said she meant it....

~Farah~

2011-07-09T10:29:00.000+08:00

Okay i just woke up and i still have not bath:P
well yesterday went to civic centre with abizer,aisyah and alvin after Maths UT. Woah i spent my time with the As name:P Abizer treat us frappe, i feel bad, and i wanted to pay but he insist..oh well i just accept it then. Thank you abizer:)
I think i'm used to having you ard, spending time with you..
the weird thing is that i think im addicted to your smell..its like where i go, sometimes theres your smell, and it reminds me of you..
I like everything abt you..well i cnt deny tht i cant stop talking to you..i guess you know me too well..
~FArah~

They rocks!!!

2011-07-07T10:46:00.000+08:00

I ♥ W46A

soooo demoraliseddddddddddd~~

2011-07-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

I dont know what's going on now, but I'm just going with the flow....

I feel so demoralised..really bad..my communication was so badly done..E grade is a bad grade..
i may look calm about it..but deep down inside..i really feel disappointed about it..especially when communication is the main subject and I have to pass. In fact all of the module i must pass..haiz....i dont know what to do now...

caught in your smile~

2011-07-04T13:01:00.001+08:00

just a kiss in your lips in the moonlight~

i still remember, on my day..you came back up and bought for me tim tam even though you knew that you are late for your talk....
one of my wish is you...
you text me this "tapi kite nak awak tau betape istimewanye awak kepada kite:)"..do you know that you are really sweet..you made day..
but now, it bothers me to think if you mean what you said..hmm well i hope you do..
well i'm just trying to let my feelings out..
~Farah~

2011-07-04T12:54:00.002+08:00

I dreamt of you...

2011-07-04T10:26:00.000+08:00

Morning!!
I'm in school right now:)
i thought i wont be talking to him..but yea we did..it was a little awkward at first, but i decided to break the ice..if not neither of us would talk..
reach woodland inter about 7:20 plus. so i waste my time at the interchange and decided to buy something at Mr Bean shop:)
Went school with Faizal, my silat friend. Well somehow or rather he brightens up my morning, well at least i wont start my day with a sad feeling.
I wonder....
will we ever be like how we used to be?
are we going to be close after the next semester?
i can only pray and hope that each day everything will be alright..

2011-07-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

haiz..i still remember one of my friend said that i'm like desperate for you..well it kinda hurt me..but i tried not to show it as i dont wanna make him feel guilty..its just that you really mean a lot to me..no one is able to know what i'm feeling right now, no not you, not them but only God.....

cos the reason is you...

2011-07-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

if she's the one that makes you happy, then go for it..all i ever wanted is to see you smile..

even if its gonna hurt me...when you're happy, i'm happy too..

no matter how much you mean to me...

yes you mean a lot to me..

~Farah~

2011-07-03T13:33:00.000+08:00

~Just a kiss~

lyin’ here with you so close to me

it’s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe

caught up in this moment

caught up in your smile

i’ve never opened up to anyone

so hard to hold back when i’m holding you in my arms

we don’t need to rush this

let’s just take this slow

just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

just a touch in the fire burning so bright

and i don’t want to mess this thing up
i don’t want to push too far

just a shot in the dark that you just might

be the one i’ve been waiting for my whole life

so baby i’m alright, with just a kiss goodnight

i know that if we give this a little time

it will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find

it’s never felt so real, no it’s never felt so right

just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

just a touch in the fire burning so bright

and i don’t want to mess this thing up

i don’t want to push too far

just a shot in the dark that you just might

be the one i’ve been waiting for my whole life

so baby i’m alright, with just a kiss goodnight

no i don’t want to say goodnight

i know it’s time to leave, but you’ll be in my dreams

tonight

just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

just a touch in the fire burning so bright

and i don’t want to mess this thing up

i don’t want to push too far

just a shot in the dark that you just might

be the one i’ve been waiting for my whole life

so baby i’m alright, oh, let’s do this right, with just a kiss goodnight

with a kiss goodnight

kiss goodnight

Lady Antebellum

you're the reason i smile..

2011-07-03T13:08:00.000+08:00

TWINNY!! i really miss us..i miss laughing so hard w you..i miss talking and having wild imaginations w you..its so not me when all this is no longer there..i miss taking bus home and talking non stop w you..i just want to see you smile..haiz...i just want the old us..i miss those moments...
i miss you..
~Farah~

2011-07-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

All i ever want was to hear the truth from you..

I miss twinny..i miss talking like before..

2010-05-29T11:01:00.000+08:00

Hey people!
This year is my busy year as i have to prepare myself for the GCE O level Exam. That is why i did not update my blog. Firstly, I would like to wish everyone Happy HolidayS!!
This few days i have not been myself. I felt lost, tired and sad at the same time. I know I am not as cheerful as before and I am sorry if I have hurt anyone's feeling.
Ok now its not the time to be sentimental XD
Ok gtg now maybe someday then i'll update my blog aites !
~farah~

2010-03-13T13:22:00.001+08:00

Yesterday all of us got back our results. Well i did well for science and maths,but my eng and malay.L is getting worse. I really need to wake up and discipline myslef to prepare for the O levels. No more wastiong of time. Once gone,its gone. This CA1 will be my wake up call. All i nedd is to BELIEVE taht i can do well and never give up (:

Anyway,all this relationship stuff will be put aside. I would not want it to affect my studies. I'm just tired of thinking about it but still i wont stop the feeling,cause i just cant do it. Well,I guess i need to smile more in school especially, cheer up and live life to the fullest!

Today was AWESOME! Firah,Hayati,Zaki and I,yea we went to pasir ris park! The memories.

okay then,I'm not going to waste any more time,take care everyone

xxwith lovexx

~Farah~

2010-01-28T21:54:00.002+08:00

I had enough! I'm sick,I'm stress at home..
i cant even have a good rest. why do people keep on giving me problems? or is i am the one at fault,always finding trouble..
I'm sorry everyone if i did anything wrong or hurt any of you guys..

You've teach me so much about love

2010-01-10T09:17:00.001+08:00

I wil be away for long and for GOOD!
so wont update much,but do tagged(:
i will still check it hahXD
ok then thats all
~Farah~

I'm no longer the girl i used to be.
shes gone now,and never will be back.
I'm now the someone who will NOt let any1 push me around.

Hate that i love you but i can't let you go

2010-01-10T09:09:00.000+08:00

Ican't go on like this anymore.
need to stand up for myself.
I need to say it from my heart.
I need to be frank with u.
I need to be strong enough to let it all out.
I need to be able to accept whatever it is.
I need to move on.
All of this is going to happen SOON.
and i mean it. Iwill say it,mean it,and done with it.
working hard to excel!

2009-12-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hey!
I miss NURUL AMALINA BINTE IBRAHIM! haha
ok lame,but seriously i miss her damn lots! Also not forgetting my 'moyang', NUR LIYANA ATHIRAH BINTE AFFENDI(i hope i spell it right ahha)
hmm ok not posting much.
Hurt whatever.
~Farah~

2009-12-28T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps!
I'm really bored!Oh God. I Hate Her! ARGH!!Why can't she just shut her mouth! Its so irritating. You and your bad mouth! HMMPH! And yeah my dad just ignore it. I really don't know what else to say. I'm hurt about stuff,then now they create trouble. Is it all my fault? WHatever la,not going to say vulgarities.ISH!

2009-12-22T17:28:00.000+08:00

Hey yo!
yay! finally i'm back!
I had a great time[ certain parts] there haha. since i got home late around 1145pm,i overslept and was late for meeting just now.Luckily didnt get scolded haha.
1st day:
woke up around 4 plus am then get ready to set off. go to checkpoint then enter malaysia.
Aunties,uncles and cousins all gather and start our journey together.
There were 4 cars.First is uncle raziff and family including Aunt hanim and nenek.2nd is uncle johari and family,third is my family and forth is uncle hisham and family. Each car hold a walkie talkie so tht drivers could communicate with one another easily. I had many naps hah since the journey is far. All the vehicles were speeding including us XD haha. But it was quite dangerous,furthermore it was raining. reach KL in the afternoon. Our hotel is called Pyramid Tower.It is at the sunway lagoon. I was going 'wah' when i enter the hotel. It was Awesome! Then got our rooms and had some rest for a while. After maghrib,all of us met again and off to do some shopping and little India there. It was chaotic. All of us had our dinner somewhere there. I had roti nunn[dnt knw how to spell]. the bread was ok,but the chicken was not really cooked and theres still blood on it. And ya i lost appetite. As for my drinks,i had Bandung! hehe. before reaching litttle india,we took bus and i hate it. its a long story and i dont want to think of it again. then we took LRT. Took some pic and played games while on the way to masjid jamek. i bought a watch and i like it. My family didnt shop that much coz theres not much to buy. since its already 10 plus pm,my aunt got a van and it took us back to our hotel,some males had to take cab coz theres not enough space. Got back to our room and get ready to sleep!
PS. the decorations there are pretty nice. kalah geylang,orchard pun haha.
day 2:
woke up 6 plus and got to know that only 2 people could go breakfast at the catering there. SO mum and i got to go Xd i ate as much as possible haha. while eating,i saw Miss Tourism there.wah i cant believe my eyes that they were actually there haha. i talk to Miss Brazil as if i know her(: Its nice talking to her you know. step popular jap la katakan haha. took pictures with her too. While walking back to my set,i saw MIss Korea! wow,ape lagi i took my chance and take photo with her too XD my cousin pon join haha.
After breakfast all of us plan to go amusement park or extreme park or sunway lagoon.then in the end we went sunwaylagoon then to amusement park i think. it so much fun,i LOve the slides! and the waves!
At night all of us went shopping again this time the mall is held in the hotel. cool or what! we eat and shop.shop and eat XD
then off to watch movie. all of us tokk centre seats and occupied 2 rows haha.[maklum la ramai] We watch Santau. A scary movie! the movie was fantastic. it really scares me off then off to our rooms an slept.
day 3:
my whole family overslept! haha this time i got to go breakfast again! my sis dont want to wake up,too bad la. my twin bro and i met the rest then off to eat XD AN D yea we saw miss tourism again! wah best ehk. haha eat and eat and eat. aiyo confirm gain a l ot of weight haha. then we pack our stuff and checkout. went to melaka to do someshopping and MYDIN. shop2 again and yea i didnt buys much only,not enough money,haiz. went to some places at melaka and then to johor. shop there again.Again didnt buys stuff haiz.sedih tkde duit nk shop.nvm, Then back to SIngapore. So tiring you know.
ok lah pictures will be at facebook,hmm thats all.
kalau boring tkya baca ok haha
~Farah~

2009-12-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hey yo!
I will be on MIA!!! hahaha
don't miss me yea[like real] haha will update soon!
take good care of yourself everyone!
Missing you guys! always
~Farah~

2009-12-18T14:30:00.001+08:00

"love comes in a tricky way. sometimes we think that we are inlove,not knowing we are just friends. But sometimes, we stick too much to friendship that we forget that we are really inlove "

"to reach for another is to risk involvement. To expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not to be loved in return "

"my friend once asked me if i do love u. I answered' yes', they asked me again,'does he love you?' then i sat down, look at the stars and closed my eyes. wishes do come true right? "

if there's one thing i want to count on. one thing i want to thank for. and one thing i'll always remember. its the day we met and the good things that in one way or another, makes us friends.

questions,thought,maybe its all jumble up

2009-12-18T13:50:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i feel that
do i belong with them
am i wanted there
are they just pretending in front of me
are they all wearing mask?
behind those smiles,i wonder
behind all those words
am i being myself or just trying fit in
i'm confuse
are they true
are they the ones
did i make the right choice
at times i felt belong when i'm with them
at times i dont,as though i'm not needed there
its nearly three years
some are even longer
people change
the world changes too
im confuse,really
i've been trying to find the truth
truth is all i ever wanted to know
under their breathe
i'm lost and i lost my way through it
yea curiousity kills the cat
could i trust them
maybe someday
it will all reveal
maybe not all
maybe nothing at all
rubber band = the bond that hold us all
i'm still learning and still searching
my life,
i've been trying to fit in
not being myself
i'd try to be like others
but deep inside,i'm still me
i wonder if i've been accepted for who i am
or should i change just to be accepted
bit by bit,i'd try to reveal me
observing the rest,their language
maybe coz of pity the accepted it
no one is the same

2009-12-17T13:29:00.002+08:00

Hey yo!
hah, today is the starting of bulan ISLAM! SO its Happy new year!! haha.
ok I have this 1 cadet who keeps my BIG secret! OMG my BIG secret you know! haiz never mind. FAKHIRAH,if u reveal my BIG secret,you are sSO GOING TO GET it FROM ME! understood?
haha,its a reminder for you.

oh by the way i need to remind the Part As
Attention Part As: on the 8 jan 2010,the school will held sec 1 orientation. so i need to know the strength for 8 jan 2010. I WANT ALL TO COME! also there will be orientation camp on 15-16 jan 2010. i also want full strength. Fakhirah,i want you to get the strength by this friday 8.00 pm,2000pm.
ok,now time to post something else.
hmm i dont mind if theres no one reading my blog,and i dont care if my blog is such a bore coz its my blog.hah whatever.

i really do miss you so much. if only u know how truly i fall for you. its such an eyesore seeing you with her,but what can i do,we're just freinds ryte?? its ur choice,not mine. i know its not the right phrase or word to say eyesore,but ya i hurts me. i cant take it when friends told me that they saw you with her.maybe u guys a just friends,best friends i think.i still do remember what ever u said during the day you wanted to know my reasons.come back soon ok. i will be away when you get back to singapore. theres tears behind all those smile. i appreciate the friendship so much. Thanks for all the smile,laughter and many more. thought of msging you with tht long numbers hah,but u said if thers anything important msg this number. hah, its ok, im cool haha.
The Beach,the scenary,the Sunrise,the Sunset is part of my life. peaceful,calm.
Vanilla Twilight! XD

2009-12-16T19:28:00.001+08:00

Hey!
yesterday was such a tiring day for me,well actually not really haha. Hashimah,hayati,atiqah,suhailah,hidayah and i cycle all the way from bedok to ECP.Hayati,atiqah and I had an extra journey which is from tampines to bedok to ecp. It was quite far but all of us manage to endure all the way to ecp even though our butts hurt.haha. It was pretty cool,cycled together with them. HAyati and atiah went home first.then hidayah suhailah,hashimah and i cycled home and caught in the rain. BURR,it was real cold. We were all drenched from head to toe. I got home with an headache,but glad that i didnt get any fever (: Overall the bbq was terrific! HAH. i MISS THEM ALL,AND YEA GET TO SEE SOME OF THEM XD. well except for,chole,julie,amanda,evonne,david. played beach volleyball with a ball bought form somewhere by dania and afiqah. Thanks guys. It was hilarious playing with them. 2 thumbs up! And you know what? I GET TO SEE THE BEACH! YAY! I really miss the BEACH! I am so going again! maybe going to bring along food so we won't have to spend money on expensive food XD. If only i own a camera,i could take lots and lots of pictures there.
Well thats all for today hah,take good care of urself people!
~Farah~

2009-12-12T09:32:00.000+08:00

Hey Yo!
I miss the beach! I miss the sunset! Oh God i am so in love with the beach haha.
Zaki went to johor for 2 weeks! cool hah,lama sey tu.
Most of my friends are away for holidays. Oh btw Happy Birthday Sabrina! Finally u turn 14 haha.
Cant wait to go Sunway Lagoon with cousins! I hope the OBS Camp 2 Bravo has confirm the date and time for BBQ asap. Oh No i miss him..nvm, Oh I'm craving fro chocolates! and I'm in love with owl city haha.
dont worry,I'm going to the beach SOON! haha
Miss everyone!
take care!
ooh sunset and sunrise tooXD
Vanilla Twilight.

2009-12-07T17:49:00.000+08:00

Hey Peeps!
Finally get to post hah! I've finally complete my OBS course! yahoo!
5 days straight. well i wont post long cause i have important things to do,so more info read Dania's blog ok XD
Thanks Da Gama. Together we went through thick and thin haha,ALL THE WAY!!
Chole,Nathan,Daryl,Melvin,Dania,Qian Yi,David,Kai,Axel,Karmin,Evonne,Huai Wei,Wilson,Julie,Amanda.
Thank you so much for everything guys and not to foget our instructor Jasmine. Keep in contact ok.

2009-11-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

when boredom strikes randomlol,editted by opie

I miss LIYANNA aka Moyang(:

2009-11-20T09:29:00.000+08:00

Pictures Time!
Bloodsister outingXD

2009-11-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

Hey yaw.
Today i went out with my BLOODSISTERS!! haha,all of us dress so nice. I like!XD
Ifah looks as if shes going to a party,firah looks feminine like a kindergarten teacher,i look like as if im working as a manager? dayah look simple but NICE! haha pictures will be uploaded soon!
oh im eating now so ya tc
~Farah~

2009-11-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

Happy by Leona Lewis

Someone once told me

that you have to choose

what you win or lose

you can't have everything

don't you take chances

you might feel the pain

dont you love in vain

cause love wont set you free

i could stand by the side

and watch this life pass me by

so unhappy but safe as could be

so what if it hurts me

so what if i break down

so what if this world just

throws me off the edge

my feet run out of ground

i gotta find my place

i wanna hear my sound

dont care about other pain infront of me

cause im just tryna be happy, yea

just wanna be happy, yea

holding on tightly

just cant let it go

just tyrna play my roll

slowwly disappear,ooh

well all these tears

they feel like theyre the same

just different faces, different names

get me outta here

well i can stand by the side

and watch this life pass me by

pass me by

#so what if it hurts me

so what if i break down

so what if this world just throws me off the edge

my feet run out off ground

i gotta find my place

i wanna hear my sound

dont care about other pain infront of me

cause im just tryna be happy

just wanna be happy,ooh

__________________________________

so any turns that i cant see

i'll count a stranger on this road

but dont say victim

dont say anything

repeat #

i just wanna be happy

___________________________________________________________________________________

ncc annual camp is coming soon,this sat and i am so not ready. I mean not really prepared physically and mentally for this camp. Camp after camps. Soon it will be OBS. I really hope that all 33 of us would get the chance to go as one(: gosh i really need to start train my mind and body. Guess i will be going for long distance cycling,maybe swimming,long dist walk and i dont know. Well lets just see then

cya people

~Farah~

2009-11-11T10:14:00.000+08:00

I am really confuse about it. It hurts thinking about it. If only u really knew how i really feel deep down inside. At times,i thought of putting an end to this feelings,but at the same time,i just don't want to stop it. U see,this feelings is so nice to have it,but if only u do feels the same way as i do. I guess its a no then from you. One-sided love huh. I felt like crying seeing u,no one knows how it feels like to be in this situation.If i knew about the truth,would i be deeply hurt? Could i accept it with open heart? will it still be the same as usual? I'm having a hard time thinking about all this.Should i stop it? My heart just wouldnt let me.Everytime i turned away from you,i felt like crying,but no,it should not be that way. Being friends with u,is also enough for me. I am happy though. Seeing u smile,lightens up my day even for bit. Its your choice,i can't force u.Just follow your heart. Maybe I'm being too much,but what else can i do? sit around looking at blank space? not being me? I am who I am. I must be strong dealing with all this.
I really do miss my friends,especially dania. Dania,if you're reading this,i would like to apologise for everything that i had done to you. We've been friends for long and i hope we will still be friends no matter what happens. You have a good heart deep down inside. Be yourself,show your true personality and i know people loves you. I am really sorry for everything.
~Farah~

2009-11-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

Hey ya folks(:
supposingly,today went out cycling with hayati,atiqah and ?? but in the end cancel..-_- .i plan to go cylcing to pasir ris park and in the end went with zaki
so wake early in the morning ard 6:30 plus,solat then called zaki to check if he has woken up. Later met him somewhere at the sushi shop at the swimming complex around 7 plus and set off to pasir ris park. Walk all the way there, talk and talk. It was quite tiring but fun at the same time.Theres these one time,an insect which looks like dragonfly but very small,it also looks like a bee.That thing was following me and i got scared hah.i went to the left,it also went to the left.I went to the right,it also went to the right. Zaki can still watch,as if its a free show haha. Then he did something and we walk off before that insect follow again. Zaki's stomach keep on grumbling haha as he did not had his breakfast. Finally we arrive at the pasir ris park and he decided to have a rest for a while. So we found a bench and talk while enjoying the view of the sea. I really wish that my house would be near the beach so if im stress,upset or bored i could just visit the the beach. It was so calm there. Went back to tampines by bus and head to Tamp 1. We bought pancake at Mr bean shop since we were hungry. Hmm won't elaborate much,coz theres so much things that happen. Walk back home and said goodbye to him. So whats next? hmm maybe going bowling or cycle to some places,play basketball or anything.
Suddenly i miss my part A so much! haha,hope they miss me too. haha. I really hope that this annual camp we have full strength for part A! All the way girls. Do get along with one another coz bonding is the one that will hold us together. Part A,any outings?
~Farah~.

2009-10-27T19:05:00.000+08:00

Hey people! just got back from cycling alone,again hah! Since,amaline.h can't find her key,ramdhan,his mum won't allow,then ramai went for challenge quest,might as well i go alone right?
hmm today,i did not go for shooting training as i had community service gropu at HQ civil defence somewhere near school. Learn the same thing as before BUT,the lectures were far more interesting than the previous lectures i went last year.All of us laugh till we felt like our stomach were about to burst. i really had a great time there and yeah talking about some stuff with fatin and kaori. YOU GUYS ROCKS!
anyway it ends late than the time stated on the consent form. Syaraf decided to treat me,as we had make a deal before,so went to KFC with him and he bought for me shroom burger while he had fillet. I really enjoy having a conversation with him. My first long conversation with him even though we are in the same class.
I really enjoy it today!
PS: i want to lepak[ take some fresh air],siapa nk join? ape2 msg(:

2009-10-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

SURVIVORS HUAT AH!

haha i miss you guys lots even though we're in the same school haha,pathetic or what

hmm,you guys have been a great team members,and i just love the way it is. You guys improved a lot on the last day and i am glad that we're in the same group. All the best Survivors!

I am really confused. Telling the truths really hurts. It takes a lot of courage to be honest.I'll always remember what the facilitors said. I just hope that this feeling hadn't appear in the first place. I am really sorry. yes i have to react normal in front of you,in front of everyone. I really feel bad a bout it. Haiz,just dont want to talk much about it. BE HAPPY(:

~Farah~

2009-10-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

I love my friends so much. They are the ones who cheer me up when i am down. You guys really made my day. I can't just a void you my friend just cause i am trying to get rid of that feelings towards some other person. yeah it hurts a lot,but in order to save this friendship,one need to step back. I tried my best to act normal in front of you,at times i just can't take it,but i reminded myself,i have to,its for my own good.
I cant just lost a friend just because of him. no It will be a wrong thing to do. Ya Allah,semoga aku dapat bertahan dan redha dengan ini semua,amin.
I just really hope that we will still be friends no matter what.

To my Survivors member, ALL THE WAY!!

2009-10-08T15:00:00.001+08:00

To anyone who is reading this, All the Best for EOY!! and get GOOD grades(:
I'm done with physics and english paper 1,and tomorrow will be Malay paper 1 and geography. chop chop won't post that much due to the examination week.
Take care(:
~Farah~

2009-09-08T09:18:00.000+08:00

Hello people! Its been some time since I've post.This few days I've been too emoti0nal with some stuff. It hurts to see when my dad keep on finding fault with my mum. How I wish that life is full of happiness. No more crying,no more being frustrated at something,no more fighting between one another,etc. Well nothing in this world are perfect. I've gotten back my results and I am really grateful that i managed to pass English,hah. But i still need to work harder for my combined humans. Last Saturday and Sunday,I've been busy helping my mum bake some cookies for Hari Raya,but i didn't the chance to taste it till break fast. Overall we've made about 4 different types and it was a great time for me as i could spent more time with my mum. So yesterday,my friends and i decided to go to SAF open house, since its the last day. But in the end,we did not go as planned, Hayati,Atiqah and I decided to study at Tampines Library and were lucky that theres some space for us study. After studying went to follow atiq and yati to buy some batteries and stationary and half way met Staff Khairina. Gosh she still look tall XD.The we headed to Tampines North CC and had chat about all the way till 4 plus and then it was time for us to go on separate ways. Overall the I had fun studying together with them, but hopes to Break fast together at mosque soon!

Till here folks(:

~Farah~

2009-07-27T20:07:00.002+08:00

Hey yo,
Today was such a boring day. Hidayah was m.c from school and I felt lonely sitting far most behind..oh and get well soon my dear friends; Hidayah,Amal,Hilmi,Amira,Joshua,Syarafuddin,Oliver
The only fun period was when i ate during MT lesson and P.C I get hungry easily so i would usually brought food with me to school.
After school went to meet tuition teacher and talked with him for a while and then went home straight since theres loads of things to be done.
Well I really hope that my friends are coming back tomorrow. Since Common Test 2 are around the corner which is 3 weeks from now. I won't be posting much, so take care everyone.
~Farah~

2009-07-23T10:25:00.000+08:00

Hello again! I would Like to wish this wonderful friend of mine A Happy Birthday! You have been kind to me and i would not forget ur kindness. Also I would like to apologise if I had done anything wrong or hurt you in someways. Stay cheerful and sweet always!

tc and Love you!

~Farah~

2009-07-23T10:13:00.000+08:00

Hello!
oh by the way,May peace be upon you.
Today was kind of AWESOME!
Okay early in the morning,on the way to school,it was raning drizzly.So I had to quicken my pace so as to not to be drenched when it starts to rain heavily. In the end i was drenched from head to toe. Haha,at least I had fun playing in the rain.Today theres eclispe,but we can't see it in Singapore,too bad for us, but still I do not want to see it anyway,it really freaks me out.
During Computer studies lesson,as usual surf the net but at the same time doing the work given.The superior gender haha! During recess I ate the food that i brought from home and it was tasty. Thanks mum!
oh and today theres maths test and I did it in just 15 mins and went to sleep as I was too tired. The rest of the period was so rush so nothing much to say.
After school,wanie,shimah and I help amal with her no3 uniform and we hid in the toilet so that we will not be chased out from school by Mr wong! After saying goodbye to Amal,the three of us head to Tampines Library and i started to make nuisance. Wanie and I were like in our own worlds and acting like mad people.
Everytime we're in the library the first thing we will do is going to the toilet. Daily routine haha
Met the rest and start doing our own things.
As I was reading a magazine,The Muslim Reader,I started dozed off. haha i tried to keep myself awake till I can't stand it any longer,lay on to my bag and have nap. I'm not sure if it was a long nap but thank god when i woke up,my friends are still there doing their work.
I feel fresh again so i continued reaing the magazine but this time its Fitness.haha
thought of being exercising after that but I changed my mind and just head home and now I'm busily blogging.
Oh Man! I totally fogot that Tomorrows' theres 2 test,physics and chem. wah die already.
hmm k till here folks!
tc
~Farah~

2009-07-21T12:28:00.000+08:00

Hey there!!!
currently I'm doing my homework,chatting and blogging, 3 things a the same time.
Chatting with zakiki.hazwan,aliff,sulaiman and dayah.
And I'm chatting nonsense with zaki. k actually not that nonsense la.aiyo kk enough
hmm miss lepak-king with many of my frens. haiz
hmm gtg need to finish up my work tc
~Farah~

2009-07-19T05:37:00.000+08:00

Hello People!!
I know its been AGES since i've updated this dead blog.
Hmm currently doing C.S homework(cam phm).
Seriously i am rotting at home. All I've been doing is eat,eat,listening to music and sleep. Haha pathetic right. But still I only grow by 1 cm and did not gain any weight..if only I'm 160 cm..hah
I have nothing much to tell except this few days has been a hard time for me. Family problems here and there..how am i supposed to concentrate on my studies.
At times i really wish to stop schooling,but when i think back,what will happen to my future if i dont have any education.
I would like to grow up fast,make my own living. I can't tolerate any more nonsense at home. My brain is about to explode. If only I knew hot to let go of all the feelings that had been buried for long. Its really painful.
Last Tuesday,something bad happened to me. This incident really broke my heart.
Early in the morning,i felt weak and thought of not coming to school,but i do not want to miss any lessons. Around 7.45 am,the whole school have to take their temperature and i was shocked that my body temperature was high,38.4 deg cels. Retook again and the temp drop to 38.3. So went to infantry B and had a mask put on and temperature had to be taken again. so far I've taken 4 times. Called my dad and got a permission to go home on my own. I walked all the way to home and was so exhausted. Change clothes,switch on television and went to sleep. I had a really good rest. On the evening,i didn't eat dinner as i have no appetite,so tag along with my mother and brother to Tampines mall as the wanted to buy new phone. It was a long queue. I was so Jealous that my brother got a new phone ,haiz maybe nest time will be my turn. okay,went home at 11pm,and got to know that my dad was not in a good mood. I went straight to the bathroom and take wudhuk. went o my room to pray and suddenly my dad enter and scolded both my sister and I. He ordered us to surrender our phone to home and put it at the living room. While he was counting to 3,i quickly took out my sim card and surrender my phone. and the conversation start:
Dad: kau kasi handphone kau semua letak kat luar!
Me: Farah nya hp yang lagi satu ayah da pecahkan pe yang fatin pakai tu.( i think i'd raised my voice)
My dad got mad and took my phone with him
Dad: oh kau tinggi kan suara ye!
he came to me and hit me..
my head hit the wall and he slapped me. I was crying badly and covering my head and face.
And something happen that my head hit real hard on the wall,but luckily i get only a bump.
me: sakit la bodoh! ( i really didnt mean it to say those harsh words to him..i was so hurt,so in pain and all those words just blurted out.)
i move backwards and he cam closer and hit me again.serve me right for talking back..
my mum tried to stop it but end up she got the scoldings from him.
afterwards i went to pray but I can't stop sobbing. Everytime i heard his voice i would start to cry.
after praying my dad came in the room and scolded my younger sis for telling lies,cause of her my phone got smash,she got beaten too but not as bad.
i covered my ear really hard as i do not want to hear his voice.I kept on crying,i know i should be strong,but all this hitting and scolding really pressurised me.
i didnt have a good night sleep but still have to head to school..at times i feel pain in my head,but its only for a while. Glad that it was just a bump..
till now i had a hard time to even talk to him. it really do hurt me a lot,but still i have to move on as i still have a future ahead me.
Well that's all i can post for now.
Take care
~Farah~

2009-05-20T21:19:00.000+08:00

I was tagged by zarifah

here it it:

1) Besides lips,where is your favourite spot to get kiss?

-cheek?

2)How do you feel when you wake up in this morning

-Don't feel like going to school,feeling tired at the same time

3)Who was the last person you took photo with?

-rukhsana,zakiki,izzat and my adik(amir)

4)would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

-No!

5)Would you ever donate blood?

-in the future,maybe

6)Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the same opposite sex?

Yup of course

7)Do you want someone dead?

i guess no

8) What does the last message says?

-"Hey Farah... Cn u cl me..pls,pls,pls..

9)What are you thinking right now?

-are there any homework left undone?

10)Do you wish someone with you right now?

-hmm,ya..

11)What time did you went to bed last night?

-11.00PM
12)Where did you buy the T-shirt that you're waering right now

-i have no idea,my mum bought it for me

13)is someone in your mind?

-erm ya kind of

14)Who was the last person who texted you?

-Irfan audi

15)10 people

2009-05-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

Hello there,
Today school was great. It was really slack,and yea we got to eat donut and pie!!!
Donut Dunkin and Pie Kia!! haha. Thanks to the Trybe!! wee~
After school went to ncc room to discuss about ORD and training schedule
and yea it was fun with my platoonmates around me
and also i wanna say sorry to sharifah that we/i didnt wait for her cause if not she would be the one who usually would wait for us despite her going home late.
ok,I'm still sick and hurt..
To someone..this is for u..
I'm really sorry that i've hurt u in some ways.I really do feel guilty. I cant stop blaming myself.
Also without u knowing,when Im talking to you on the phone just now,i'm actually holding back my tears,coz i do nt want u to knw that i'm crying. If only u understand it..But i dont think u do as u could not even accept it. I really do need a time out. And yea in the end we chat as i someone else is using the house phone also coz u wanna knw the reason why i'm doing this to you. This is really crazy..i cant stop crying about it..it really do hurts me knowing that u cant accept and u blaming me..I'm scared if tmr when i see you,tears would start to flow..
I cnt take it anymore,if only theres chocolate for me to eat..haiz
I'm sorry once again..

2009-05-18T12:11:00.000+08:00

Oh hello again.

Just wana wish

A Happy Birthday to Abdul Hakeem!! HAppy 15th birthday

You're old,haha. may u pass with flying colours

2009-05-18T12:01:00.000+08:00

Okay hello people(:
right now I'm alone at home and yea having bad running nose. Oh my,it is so irritating.
haiz..I'm bored. The rest went out to eat dinner:(
Last Thursday 14/05/09
I had C.S paper,It was a very long paper i guess. And yea a difficult one too.
After paper head to canteen. I thought they had confirm about going to Bugis since we exams are over,but in the end only Hashimah,Atiq,moyang,Lylie,and Hayati I think went.
Left me,Aza,Rukhsana,wanie,Sharifah. In the end i follow sharifah to meet her Npcc friend and by books( HALO) haha. While walking around Tampines Mall, we met many friends of ours. Also we met Amaline.I,Istiqa,Effah,Khadijah and Hidayah. We followed them and had a hilarious laugh with them especially Effah and Istiqa. Sharifah and i wnet to meet Yu Ning before heading back to school. Talk and talk in bus with sharifah and ya i was such a blur sotong,haha.
Okay inthe end we met Aza,rukh,wanie and master Linda at blue sea cause they were also going to eat at the Mamak shop. We ate,laugh,and joke. Rukhsana even did her "fantastic' laugh. She is such a darling haha. OKay blablablabla. LOl. We plan to go for a jog and yeah sharifah is following too!! but wanie cannot. Nevermind theres always a next time right. Aza,rukh,sharifah and i tokk pictures and in the end we jog 1 round only at stadium. Haha pathetic right. Head to sunplaza park and wait for master linda. while waiting we played swing haha and even met a 'kangaroo' kitty. It is so cute. tokk pictures and then we lepak at liabrary as master want to lepak with sgt khaliesah and friends afterwards. Miss sgt a lot sey. And yeah took pictures again and went home. When i got home,i got scolded from dad as i went home late, and got last warning from him..haiz..
So far that day was sush a wonderful!! Loves you guys!!
okay yesterday 16/05/09
Woke up early in the morning and pray. After that thought of going for a jog,and yea went alone since no one want to go and some were even sleeping. 7.00 am so more. Yesterday zaki msg me abt going for a jog at 645 am in the end i woke up late,so ya,i went alone. jog 2 rounds around the stadium,abt 5 rounds the park. It was fun as i could even enjoy the nature..lol
Got home around 9 plus and text zaki and zarifah if they wana play badminton coz I'm like dead bored. In the end went to gym with Amalina.I and family except for her bro. Her dad fetch us and headed to the destinations. Did the track mill,and many other stuff. It was so tiring. We even dance as there were only us and a guy so we entertain ourselve by dancing. Also theres a radio so we switch on various of songs,as we could pick any CDs there. pictures again.wana knw more go to zarifah's blog.
k in the afternoon i continue jogging with zaki,izzat,rukhsana and my younger bro tag along. Had fun with them and ate 'Aish Cream" haha.took pictures again and play playgrounds haha
Overall the whole day i had fun whether I'm alone or not. Exercise are fun haha
so ya i got to stop now since the flu is getting worse..haiz
take care people
!FaRoRe!

The Moments (:

2009-05-17T12:02:00.000+08:00

Okay now i will just upload pictures,hah(14/05/09)

okay Picture of the day(16/05/09)

more are coming soon

2009-05-10T01:53:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Bro Sharul!!!

will upload your picture soon kk

Hope you pass with flying colours!!

~Farah~

2009-05-09T10:42:00.001+08:00

Hey There

Just want to Wish Happy Belated Birthday To My wonderful Friend Ever

Dania Syazana!!

hah da tua la orang tu.

Belajar rajin rajin ye semoga kamu lulus dalam peperiksaan dengan markah yang cemerlang. Amin.

2009-05-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

Hey There

Just want to Wish Happy Belated Birthday To My wonderful Friend Ever

Dania Syazana!!

2009-04-20T09:24:00.000+08:00

Hey there,

ok today the weather was like really hot,but have to endure..haha cam phm

ok zarifah ask me out today to accompany her to meet amirah,

so ya i ask permission from my mum (baik per) and she let me go so i text arif la saying tht i can go

so while waiting till 14:40 Pm,i went to do my c.s hwk and ya i was stuck,

ended up chatting with him,dania and using facebook hah

miss him and her lots hah

ok met arif then went to meet amirah,guess who i saw IZZAT!! haha,

ok then we went to continue with our walking,and some1 shouted my name,

dayana or dania call my name and arif just walked off as she cant see due to not wearing her specs haha,so i inform her la saying it was dania and she was shocked haha

called dania and invited her along to buubble tea shop

blabla in the end we went to lepak,

sing here sing there,talked here talked there, candid here candid there,and dania treat us otak otak,YUM!! thnx pretty,

went to David's and yea went home straight after that,

seriously miss lepaking with them haha

I love jambu zarifah and pretty Dania haha!!

2009-04-20T03:08:00.000+08:00

Hey there
haha i'm waiting for my friend to send some stuff so yea nothing to do so i blog la
ok,i've just created facebook and i seriously dont know what to do with it haha ok
still need to edit it,
hmm gtg wanna finish up the rest of my work
mid-year is just 2 weeks more so chop chop must revise tc
~Farah~

2009-04-13T04:38:00.000+08:00

Hey

Hah i know that its been months i didnt update my blog

right now is computer studies lesson,and yea having a free time haha

first 2 periods i really slack,didnt even do a thing during maths lesson

i'm stuck behind while the rest are far ahead me,no one told me what they did for maths during the day i fell sick so i'm left with tonnes of work!!

dont bother talking about the rest of the lesson

i cant talk much coz the lesson is over soon,

so ya will post again

tc

~Farah~

2009-03-10T09:30:00.000+08:00

Halo earthlings!
haiz so tiring today but still it did not stop me from being happy.
got sunburn sey..coz i went kayaking last saturday and sunday...
hmm i got back eng paper back(compo)..and yeah i pass !!
18/30..is that bad??but still i've improve right..
after school,all the part C went for IMOS briefing.
and yea i saw someone!! i was so happy that i managed to see him after so long..
but at the same time i feel hurt and guilty..
i wanted to smile at him,talked to him but i just cnt.
i knw that i am still not over you..i just cant..im struggling..to get rid of all this..
it hurts..if only you know how i felt when i saw u..just now...
haizz..i miss u so much..do u realise that..i'm so confused..everything is mixed up..
i'm trying to improve myself...and be a better person...
damn it..need to finish up my homework..well take care everyone..

2009-03-01T10:15:00.000+08:00

Since the day my friends and i 'Fought',my life is disaster.
it hurts me a lot getting to know people around you are anti of you..,the ones that u love for almost 3 years being together hated u. i was so scared to go to school till every time i will wait for my dad to send me.I'm scared to face the world now even though some stuff was solved cause since then many negative stuff started to emerge from nowhere. people said bad things about me..criticized me,judge me,and many more why cant u people just leave me alone..why do u guys hated me so much..cant i be happy even for once???i got problems at home and now in school??i come to school to study and make friends not enemies..
i can't even focus on my studies..my mind will keep on wandering around trying to find peace.
when will all this end? till i get sicked??till i get crazy??till when?? huh people
don't you guys have any mercy...i cried so much even though i told myself not to..who will i tell my problems to when ever I'm close with that girl,u people will say I've made her change her attitude and all..u cant judge me,no one knows me well except for GOD,and my parents
i really hope this would come to an end..i cant take it any longer..it is driving me crazy
i think I'm sick..i better get a rest now..take care my beloved ones..
~Farah~
PS:i beg u people to stop hurting me..

2009-02-22T10:53:00.000+08:00

every now and then i keep on thinking abt u..
i miss u damn lots but im not sure if it goes the same to you
i really hope u are feeling better each day
if i could rewind the time..i would love to see and hug you..
tc..

2009-02-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps

I'm sorry for not posting for such a long time.

just came back from camp and i had a great time there

not going to talk more.

FYI: i will not be posting again till i find the time to post

so yea take care people

~Farah~

2009-01-28T09:21:00.000+08:00

I've nothing to post so ya just want to say that

I love you so much and i miss you..

i wish you were here...

please don't stop loving me...

~salman bin zulkarnain,,~

2009-01-23T13:19:00.000+08:00

i really do love u..
i didnt expect that this could happen..
it really broke my heart..
why must this happen to me..
i dont wanna suffer from depression
bt i really felt im suffering frm it right now...
haiz..
boi,pls giv me a call,talk to me..msg me pls..i am really worried..
i feel like crying..right now
i'm also sorry to all my frens..i know that i've hurt u guys in anyway a
and also making u guys disappointed in me..
i really wanna be like the old times..
i cant take it seeing u guys ignoring me and all..
it really hurts me despite me ignoring u guys coz
i dont wanna cry infront of u guys..bt deep inside its crying and asking for forgiveness
i love u guys so much and i cnt accept it if i lose any of u..
yea and i love u boi..always do..
pls give me a call or something..

2009-01-19T02:08:00.000+08:00

David Archuleta-A little Too Not Over you

It never crossed my mind at all

That's what I tell myself

What we had has come and gone

You're better off with someone else

It's for the best, I know it is

But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide

What I feel inside

And I turn around

You're with him now

I just can't figure it out

Tell me why

You're so hard to forget

Don't remind me

I'm not over it

Tell me why

I can't seem to face the truth

I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you

Memories

Supposed to fade

What's wrong with my heart?

Shake it off, let it go

Didn't think it be this hard

Should be strong

Moving on

But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide

What I feel inside

And I turn around

You're with him now

I just can't figure it out

Tell me why

You're so hard to forget

Don't remind me

I'm not over it

Tell me why

I can't seem to face the truth

I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret

Everything I said

No way to take it all back, yeah

Now I'm on my own

How I let you go

I'll never understand

Tell me why

You're so hard to forget

Don't remind me

I'm not over it

Tell me why

I can't seem to face the truth

I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why

You're so hard to forget

Don't remind me

I'm not over it

Tell me why

I can't seem to face the truth

And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you

A song for u..

The bird..[friends are love]

2009-01-15T11:03:00.000+08:00

Halo people(:
miss u guys..hahaa..ok today's lessons was fun
i love learning haha i don't know why but i guess its because of someone who made me change and all..
well the most enjoying lesson was chemistry,English and math..i had a great time singing by myself,haha i guess i must have irritated hidayah,sorry girl..i was just trying to make myself happy
hmm after school did my homework with amalina,sharifah,hashimah, but then i gt a called from miss lee about the science beauty award thing..then i rushed off quickly with sharifah's spec
haha i look nerd with it but thats fine with me..(:
had great time with seagirlls..not ncc only but npcc too(sharifah)
something about sharifah makes me happy..she is a very caring person despite being rough at times..haha,i really love u guys..u people cheered me up when I'm feeling down..i know i must move on but i still need u guys to support me up..
back to today..went home with dania rukhsana.
something caught my attention while walking..dania picked up the bird which i thought is dead
i felt pity as the bird had fractured its neck..it was gasping for air..
i miss the worst part which is seeing it at the state of dying..rukh and dania saw it all
i really felt bad for
it
well i guess thats all folks XD
~Farah
I love u

2009-01-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

pictures of my frens..hmm i need ur pics,frens haha wana post it here

so do send it to me ya

Happy New Year People(:
well yea i know that its been a long time since i post haha

and now i'm back!!!

well basically 2008 has just pass..n yea theres been lots of things happened during that year,whether its a good thing or bad..i really do miss the moments that i spent with all of my frens and it will always be kept as a good memories.

friends,families,and everyone around me..do forgive me for my mistakes..I really do hope that this year is going to be better infact each day it will be

school starts tomorow..and now im packing my stuff getting ready and i can't wait

i really do miss my friends,schoolmates..teacher..my life would be nothing without you guys being with me and everything and i appreciate it very much.

k take care

i will post again haha

~Farah~

2008-10-13T11:26:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps(:
would not be posting for a long period of time so ya

tc people n hav a gd day ahead!!

~Farah~

Jalan Raya

2008-10-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

Halo jus posting some pics

so here they are:

more to go i guess..next time

~Farah~

2008-10-08T03:15:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps..sori for not posting for a long time..
well yea im now at skool..nth to do kan
so blog ah
im still nt sure if i shud forgive them..
they are the ppl who know only how to talk behind ppls back..
tk hapi le ckp face to face kan..tk yah nk gosip ke ape
well yea..i noe its abt me n him..
so wat if we fought or wat..its our own probs..n jgn main salahkan org sembarang ah
tk tau the fact main hembus je..
i noe if i dont forgive them its a sin..
bt why must they did this to me..
muka semua lawa2 hansem2 tap hati hitam
sori to sae tat..bt that is the fact to whom gosip or menfitnah org..
i respect them as someone older thn me..bt then..
haiz tknk ckp sal drg lag ah..biarkan drg j..
hanya tuhan je yg tahu..
~Farah~
ps: nt sure if i still like him..

2008-09-23T12:52:00.000+08:00

Hey there
exams are jus round the corner..haiz..
i wana go to pure sci class..ARGH!!
k todae was totally nt a gd dae
sori peeps bout me scolding some of u..especially dion..sori
im jus nt in the mood
confuse..n maybe regret at the same time
ya..n im sickk too..AGAIN..hate it man!!
im nt sure why iam nt in the mood maybe coz im sick..
confuse coz i cant really make up my mind
he wanna the ans asap..so i tel him then
i hate hurting people's feelings..bt why must they hurt mine..
so pathetic man..
wen i hurt his feeling
i felt an overwhelming sense of guilt..
i didnt mean it..its jus that..i cant tolerate it animore
it hurts wen ur frens said bad things bout me
its like u respect those people n suddenly one of them thrust the knife from behind
n his frens join in too..
im under pressure now..so plis at least once LEAVE ME ALONE!!
i wish i cud released all the pent-up anguish in me..in front of them..bt i jus cant
im nt strong enough.
not going to say much bout it..
im sori farhan..u wanna the ans asap
so i tel u..didnt mean to hurt u..
im sori
regret coz of failing my maths test..jus coz of careless mistakes sey..haiz
need to work hard..so yeah
ppl out there..jus wana say im really sorry if i've ever hurt ur feelings
wont be blogging..for weeks i guess..
studying for EOY!!
gd luck!!
~Farah~

2008-08-18T10:16:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of love..sick of my family..
it seems tat they doest care bout my feelings
all tat they noe is tat im a lazy gal..who such a BLOODY IDIOT!!
i cant tolerate animore from them..it drives me nuts..
im already suffering..why must they make me suffer more..
yest..farhan wanna break ups..bt in the end he say he wanna a time out for the moment..
then we both cried..he called me..n we tok bout our past n all tat..
the next dae which is todae..i get scolded frm my dad..
scolded me as i use the house fone for long..which is nt true..
i said it tat i jus use the fone n he start to shout..n even said word.."BLOODY IDIOT"
it really hit me hard..n he say tat im a lazy gal..who does not do house chores..
bt i did..n i am really disappointed wif it wen he said tat..as if he does nt appreciate in everything i do..
he even say i did nt even for once sweep the floor..n onli my bro did tat..
i did my chores n even sweep the house..he jus doesnt saw me doing all tat n say things which r untrue..n all i get was thight slap frm him.........
i'm banned to use house fone...
all this things really drives me crazy..i felt tat im nobody..in my family..the thorns among the roses..it makes me feel sick..
n yea im sick..having bad running nose,some headaches n cough..
i jus wish i didnt exist in this world..
frens,,if tmr im nt in the mood..im sori..pls do understand my situation..
i ned hugs..i ned love frm my frens..nw i feel tat im all alone in the dark street..no one to share my thoughts n feelings..
no one to share my love..
no one to care bout me..
i guess tats all i cud write abt..onli God know what i feels nw..

2008-07-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

Haloo People!!

Im bored nth much to do..so jus wanna upload some pic..

2008-06-30T04:51:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps!!

Jus wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME N MY TWIN BRO(:

~Farah~

2008-06-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

Haloo
so yesterday hav to go to skool..hav lit class
we ned to act..n haryani's grp is gd..the act like actors
den aft skool me n zarifah follow dijah to buy her new skool shoes
den i went to zarifah's house for a while as my comp cant open the doc
it was done nicely..like it
too bad had to go home early as i promise moyang..hashimah n myera to met them
i was late..n sori babes
went to tamp lib n in the end we read magazines
then myera's contact lens drop..n she went to wash it wif water
n end up pain in the eyes..it is her first time wearing it..i guess
went to her house..as it is realli painful
reach her house n her mum provide us some food..it was yummy
den we had teka teki..kekek sey krg...haha
we decide to go to terminal 3 to explore then
really had fun wif them
take loads of pictures
will upload it soon
we saw many hot guys there..lol
then saw some of the springfielders
myera..hashimah n i end up went home late..while mo went wif her mum
i reach home at abt 11:30 pm
it was really late luckily didnt get scolded from my dad bt my mum ask many quest..haiz
ya tats all for now
ps:miss him loads..hope he find some1 better
u r my precious memories(:
~Farah~

2008-06-18T03:02:00.000+08:00

Hey there peeps

yesterday went out to eat dinner..as my mum got her pay

had ikan pari..bbq..wow..sedap..but my mum's one is much2 better haha

oh ya..b4 going out..i had a row wif my twin bro..WTF..sey

he said tat im kedi..wad sey..den i said to hym bck tat he is kedi..lah

then u noe wad happen?? he go n punch my arm..somwhere near my shoulder..Sakit sey

fcuk sey dia..den apalag i punch him bck..but miss..n im nt satisfied wif it..i hit him again but this time it hit his chest..padam muka..in the end i kena kick from him..sakit sey

now my relationship wif farhan is over..didnt wanna talk much bout it

its jus tat i cant believe it tat he tel one of his fren..tat i hav no heart..mcm tk de perasaan..

sedih sey..

wadever it is nw..i still hav to move on wif him or without

i must be strong..XD

sodapop is cute!!

aniwae thnx for reading

~Farah~

2008-06-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

2008-06-17T13:08:00.000+08:00

Hey..peeps will update soon..

Will PROMISE!!

K BYES!!

2008-06-05T15:10:00.000+08:00

Hey there,

tis few daes..was such a heartbreaking for me..n i keep on thinking bout him..i thought tat i cud forget him bt i cant..n on the 2nd of july..i've made my decision which is to accept him bck..n was expecting him to msg me..wen i read his msges..my heart sank..it was really hard for me to accept the fact tat he likes sum1 else..i jus cant..patah harapanku..it is really painful..the more i think of him..more tears would appear in my eyes..n i jus cant believe it tat i was cying..so bad.. i cant even focus while doing my work in skool..my mind would start to wonder ard..looking for him..my eyes were quite swollen wen i woke up..coz i cried tat nite..i jus cant stop thinking bout u..evn in skool..i cried wen i think of u..i noe i did say to move on..n i refuse to accept u bck..bt its hard for me to stop thinking of u..the more i try..the more ily..its been abt a year n a months b4 we broke up..i cud still remember the swit times..n evrydae i wud always be waiting for u to msg me and wen u walk pass my classroom i was waiting for u to turn n look...bt u jus didnt..im nt mad wen u told me tat u found sum1..im jus disappointed..n if u realli do likes her then jus go on..i wont stop u..as long as u're hapi im hapi too..aniwae tats wad frens r for ryte...im willing to suffer then seeing u to suffer..

wana say tis the last time..to u..tat i luv u..

frens 4 ever..

2008-03-27T11:51:00.000+08:00

Hey..sorry for nt posting for a long time..

very busy..computer lack then my dad did nt allow me to use comp onli if u hav project work or school work...like wad sey..haiz

Sports day

had sports dae n our class win 4 x 100 for girls..

glad tat we win coz last year didnt get any

my classmates who took part in any event did their best shot..really proud of them even if did nt win

aft tat went to eat at macdonald den went to tm

Todae

school as per normal..nth much

he didnt pass by..which makes me miss him more..

haiz hav to forget this particular boy bt cant

really hard..ok stop it farah change the sub pls..
help miss huda do some work..fun coz can slack..huahua
ordered mango ice blended..as i am thirsty..zarifah n firah went to by things
then aft finish doing the work

went home straight coz hav religious class..need to finish it by this year so wish me gd luck

ok tats all for now

2008-03-01T11:06:00.000+08:00

Hey there

i noe it's been a long time i didnt post

this few daes i really hav no mood..coz of something

Wednesday:

skool was boring..really hard to forget tat perticular person..

afternoon hav parade rehearsal which i like

bt stil there were lots of mistakes tat i made..cant really focus..

we did the same thing bt tis time we need to wear gloves

quite hard to do rusuk senjata bt manage to do thnx to the staff tricks

after tat we went practice wif our insturtors..

some of the no 4 ppl,in cluding me, were called to go to the ncc room as we need to measure our shoulders all tat

then something happen which really shocked me

zarifah fell down

it was really scary to see all tat blood coming out..really felt pity towards her

then she was brought to the clinic..

went to clinic to see her

and yea she is alright.
reali glad tat she is alright..bt need to take gd care of it
hm k tats all my dad is coming home gtg

2008-02-20T12:43:00.000+08:00

Hey there...long time didnt post..
tdae skool was BORING!!
gt 3 test sia!!
first was malay n scored 44/50..WTH!! nt gd sey..
then it was maths..the back page was quite hard..bt manage to finish it..lol
den it was sci...i think my marks gonna be very low..
aft skool was afgjhfkhk!! FUN!! haha..zarifah..hasheemah..kekek sey
u guys rock my world!!
n u noe wad..i saw him..wee!!! hope he like the gift..n sori for giving it late..
i was like so happy wen i saw him..bt didnt show it to himm..lols
hmm common test start this thurs..n i still nt ready for it yet..haiz
need to study hard..must pass all the subject!!
k need to stop right now
signing out..

2008-02-13T08:41:00.000+08:00

HE is such a liar!!
really regret for falling onto he's trap
i trust u with all my heart..n nw u break my trust towards u..
u say tat u will nt give up..bt nw it is all BULLSHIT!! okay..
i shud nt hav believe u..OMG!!!

i thought wat u say of nt giving up is true...bt i was wrong..

U ARE SUCH A LIAR!!!
n NW ITS HARD FOR ME TO FORGET U!!

IDIOTS!!
u are a person with no heart..
u've hurt my feelings..okay...u treat me like a shirt..once u like me no more..u throw me away jus like tat...

LIAR!!!

2008-02-11T14:23:00.000+08:00

well nth to do sey
hwk still havent finish still can slack sia
tis tues zaki nk gi aus sey..
gonna miss him sia..really..
i keep on wondering bout him..OMG i am going to miss tat boy!!
both of us are just frens ok..he is my ex jus for ur info..

to zaki: seriously i am going to miss u..hope u'll hav fun..i guess u will..semoga tuhan sentiasa melindungimu..jgn lupa org kat sini k..hope u still hav the sketch book tat i use to giv u as a bdae present...jus to tell u tat i will always remember u
kalau time holidaes dtg singapore ehk..tu pon kalau le..

anithing e-mail me k

ooo my hwk are nt done yet..
gtg need to finish my work

~Farah~

2008-02-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

Hola!!

well long time didnt post sey..coz my dad did nt allow me to use comp unless u hav hwk or project..wat sey!!

skool was as usual nth much..bt gt lot of probs..
I'm starting to like him..cant tell who is it..
i noe tat its nt right for me to like someone else especially wen u already has one..
i cant stop liking tat person okay..its really hard..no matter how hard i try..i still cant foget him..OMG!!!
I think i must forget him..I GUESS..
i guess till here
~Farah~

2007-12-22T05:31:00.000+08:00

WEE!! celebrate hari raya at my nenek house..gerek sey!!
i eat alot sey until cnnt eat again haha
lepas tu g umah makcik sebelah mak..tad sebelah bpk skg mak
play comp at their house..we had fun chit chatting hehe
disgusting sey dngr drg ckp haha..rabak sey
lps tu g mkn lag..teruk sey..mkn bnyk!!
abis tu g balik umah amik baju..gerek dpt tdo umah sedare..lps tu mkn lag haha
klah tu je

~Farah~

2007-12-20T12:22:00.000+08:00

Hey there

well tmr is hari raya haji n maybe gonna overnite at my nenek house..YEAH!!
need to say something..arif..daiia..hashim..jgn mrh tk yah ano stop drop n roll k

he keep on saying tat he miss me so much..n asking me to say if i still love him..
i didnt noe wat else to say..n i didnt wanna hurt him..
its realli hard for me to explain everything to him...i jus didnt noe from where to start..why must he keep on appearing in my life??why?!!..its realli hard for me to forget him..
aft we brk up..i started to hate those kind of words..eg.love..sayang..lag ape ntah..
hate it so much!!..
n last time we chat..he said tat maybe insya-allah bile skola buka kte org stead alik enh..like WTH!!
da break den nk minta stead alik..kalau break satu kali tk pe tap ni da about 4 times i guess..bnyk kali kan..
ee benci sey!!benci..benci..BENCI!!
da lah stop it ah farah!!nnt lag sakit hati
confirm nnt kene stop drop n roll..haha
~Farah~

2007-12-18T13:34:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!! HADY WIN the asian idol!!
Hady u make us proud..hehe

well this few days my dad will be at home..n i'm sure its gonna be BORING!!
wen he is around we cant use th comp..WTH!!
aniwae nth to do so i read some books..n hav some sleep..
think tats all for now
~Farah~

2007-12-16T14:40:00.000+08:00

Today was quite BORING!!
didnt went except went to buy skool shoes n bags
den went to buy some biscuits..

Aniwae..I NEED HELP!! WHO CAN HELP ME WITH MY BLOG??
Didnt reali noe bout tis stuff..haiz
i think tats for now

~Farah~

2007-12-16T14:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday:
yesterday i met zarifah,hashimah n hidayah
at first i met zarifah at 69 bus-stop near our hose n went to skool
to collect zarifah's sec2 books..den went to moyang's house wif hidayah,hashimah n zarifah

moyang was gettin ready for some sort of party..

den went up to moyang's house n hav a chit chat wif mama(moyang"s nenek)

den zarifah make the move first as we were hungry..thnx zarifah haha
den went take pic wit mama n realise tat it was alreadi late..den went to eat againn hurried home luckily didnt get scolded sey

2007-12-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday wen to my granmother's house so called my makciknye rumah lah..
wen there coz my father's side came to singapore from brunei..i had a lot of fun spending time with my cuzzins..aft the brunei ppl came..my we went up to my cuzzin bedroom n watch Bratz the movie..wee
it is the second time i watch Bratz..
the makciks n the pakciks spend their time chit-chatting..n we spend our time watching Bratz..haha
aniwae went home at abt 12 plus i think..btw Happy Belated Birthday to my cuzzin..Sabrina!!(;

~Farah~

2007-12-14T07:08:00.000+08:00

Well this is my first time blogging..
yesterday..was BORING!! i hav to stay at home the whole dae..wth..
my dad was at home n i cant use the computer..wth!!..
nth to do so i went on reading some books(:

Miss my frens so much..n i hope the holidays gonna end soon
didnt finish my homework coz..lazy to do aniwae..haha
hmm will post somemore later or the next dae

~Farah~